Pieces of Me

Thursday, August 23, 2007

Mom to a Pre-Schooler???

So, I've belonged to MOPS for 3 years. I know that it stands for Mothers of Pre-Schoolers, but I didn't consider Hannah a pre-schooler. I joined when Hannah was 1 year old. And now, well, she's four. And this year, she's actually going to Pre-School. Pre-K to be exact. It's only 4 days a week from 9 am - 1 pm, but it's still school. She's going to be in the care of another adult who is caring for 11 other children at the same time.

I've been home with Hannah since she was born. Life was very rough in the beginning. We could barely pay our rent, had to decide which bill to NOT pay so we could buy groceries. Then we moved in with my in laws. It's been such a blessing, but we were a family of 5 for a long time and added a 6th member April 2006.

And in a month, we will be a family of 4. Grandma and Grandpa are moving out. We're buying this house. We will have enough space to live. We will be able to pay our mortgage. Life will be so different and yet to good. We are blessed!!!

And still, I sit here trying to not cry as I prepare myself for the thought of me, the only "teacher" Hannah has had in her whole life aside from Sunday School and VBS, is going to School, to be in Mrs. Kerri's class, with her friends and not her mommy.

I really thought I was ready for this. She's been driving me crazy ALL SUMMER LONG. She's so independent yet wants to spend every waking moment with me. And I haven't allowed her. She's had her down time; quiet time; art time; music time; movie time; story time, etc and play dates all summer long. I've done a lot with her, with brother in tow. I was really looking forward to some one-on-one Mommy time with Cayden.

I am keeping a little girl, now, but she and Cayden play so well together that I don't think it's going to take away from my time with him. Hannah has a completely different set of demands than Cayden. I cannot wait to spend some time with just the babies.

But I am really going to miss Hannah. She's my baby girl. She told me the other day when I asked her, "What happened to my baby girl?"
"Well, mommy, I'm all growed up, don't ya know?"

I know she's growing up, and that's a good thing. It's time for me to let her spread her tiny wings and start to fly.

But. . . . only to pre-school.


Nicole H said...

I totally get it. It's a fine line we mommies walk. I know you'll do great and so will she. I bet it brings the two of you even closer ;)

Anonymous said...

Awwww ~ Can't wait to hear all about the first day!!! Preschool is so much fun for the kiddos ~ Enjoy the time away ... makes the time together that much sweeter!! I understand though -- Natalie's not going to be in my class and that's hard to let go of the "control" for me. thinking of you

Traci said...

How's it going???? You can't leave me hanging like this!!! :-) LOVE YOU

Unknown said...

"Well mommy, I'm all growed up, don't you know?" that is sooo cute! And so sad for a mommy to hear too...they do grow so quickly...it's like you blink and they are "growed up"...you'll both do great!! She will love school...