Pieces of Me

Saturday, August 2, 2008

Reflections on 5 - Part 2

This week has been one of the most trying weeks of my life.  My nerves have been shot, and Hannah has received the brunt of most of my temper.  Bless her heart.  Of course, she has played a role in a fair share of this stress. 

Ever since Hannah was an infant, she's been in our room.  In the beginning it was a new mommy thing.  Then it became a necessity since we moved in with E & L and were limited on space.  When she turned 2, we moved her into her own room (the guest room) and whenever company came, we brought her back into our room.  Once she was in her own bed, keeping her there became an issue because she would scream and pitch a huge fit.  Not wanting to upset the rest of the house, we'd give in and bring her to our room until she fell asleep. 

This meant that many times she would fall asleep to the TV being on.  We have tried and tried again to get her to sleep in her own room, but then something would come up, like an illness or injury.  We knew the time would come when we would have to put her to bed in her own room.  So we started this week.  The goal was to keep her in her room.  It was hard the first couple of days.  She has a lullaby CD that she listens to (thanks, Traci).  We've used it since she was a baby.  She loves it; don't ever try to change it.  Bad things happen.  After talking with the pediatrician about options, we settled on stay in your room until the CD is over, and if you are still awake, then you can come into Mommy and Daddy's room.  I'm happy to say, she only didn't fall asleep twice.  And the second time it was genuinely over.  But onto the story of the first time the CD was over.

Monday night, I got 4 hours of sleep.  I was exhausted.  I've been having some sleep issues (it's 12:14 am right now) and was up tossing and turning until 3.  At 4, Cayden woke up and was up for an hour.  I finally fell asleep and had to be up at 7/7:30.  All day was a LONG day - we went to PBK Storytime to get out of the house.  We had lunch with Daddy.  And we came home to nap. . . . and nap we did not.  :(  Cayden napped, but no one else did.  I couldn't fall asleep, and Hannah wasn't letting me.  So I stumbled around the house and stayed awake long enough for Stephen to get home, and then had supper, got kids ready, and headed to bed - at 8 pm.  Took a Melatonin and was off to sleep.  At 8:50, Hannah comes in-very proudly-and announces she had made it to the end of her CD and she gets to lay in Mommy's bed (Remember, I'm sleeping).  Within 5 minutes, she's out in our bed.

On to Wednesday on the way to Daddy's work.  Hannah makes an announcement that she is going to stay up like she did the night before and make it to the end of her CD because, "I didn't really wait 'til the end.  I only pretended and pushed the button until it was over."  OOPS! She told on herself.  Needless to say, we set a timer in the kitchen now for 45 minutes, and every night since (except for tonight) she's been asleep by the end of her CD.  She did try stalling last night by spitting milk all over her bed.  I was not a happy mommy.

So with little sleep this week and being behind on housework, I've been a little grumpy.  Thankfully, whenever I sit down and tell Hannah I'm sorry for yelling at her, forgiveness immediately follows, along with a big hug and a kiss.  And yesterday she told me, "Mommy, it's okay to have a bad day.  And sometimes, you just need to be silly." So the following scrapbook LO is from 10 minutes of Hannah and me being silly together.


And so tomorrow afternoon, we will celebrate Hannah's 5th birthday (a week early) with her girlfriends at Libby Lu and the Picture People.  I cannot wait to share our day with you.  XOXO -R


Traci said...

Wow ~ Sorry the sleep thing has been so rough! Hoping for peaceful nights for all of you! We still love that CD too ~ Natalie calls it "Sleepy Songs" :-) The PP pictures from the party are cute!! Hugs to the almost-5-yr-old :) and extra hugs to the sappy Mommy!! XO

Shaunna said...

I remember those days! Nicole also slept in my bed till she was 5 and started school. Just remember, "this too shall pass". Now, I can't get her to sleep in my bed even if I beg her to. ;)