Pieces of Me

Monday, April 20, 2009

C-R-A-S-H

So I'm pretty frustrated with life right about now. I know I should be thankful for all I have, but really, could I go through anymore??? Ever since our car accident in October 2008, things just haven't run as smoothly as I'd like for them. We've had a car accident, lice, a fall in a grocery store, Grammie and her heart attacks, Pap Pap with lung cancer, Stephen's shoulder (I'm not even going to try to spell out what he's been diagnosed with), Ernie with prostate cancer, and now yet another car accident. I've been in more car accidents in the past year than I even have been in all my life.

This accident involved 3 cars and wet roads. Car #1 hit car #2 which in turn hit us. What's interesting is Car #2 had very little visual damage. Car #1 was totaled, and our car is smashed up pretty badly in the rear. We meet w/ the Body Shop this afternoon. His insurance (car #1) has already accepting responsibility so now we just have to wait and let it all play out.

Stephen and I are hurting pretty badly. But life has to go on as normal. I can't stay in bed all day while my kids run around. I can't NOT drive because I have responsibilities. But as I drove today, I held in a panic attack. The biggest panic attack I've ever suffered. I was shaking the entire drive and trying my hardest to drive at least the speed limit. I am jumpy and nervous anytime I'm the passenger. I know I'm freaking Stephen out, and probably my kids, too. I'm on antianxiety drugs so I don't know what else I can do except take things one baby step at a time.

And of course, I feel like I'm starting over as far as my weight loss is concerned. I was doing really well but then went on vacation. And I wouldn't trade the vacation for the world, but now I just don't want to do anything. Of course, I will drag myself to the grocery store today w/ the kids. I will check out Newflower as well. I'm in the mood for fresh strawberries and pineapple and since I have my new pineapple cutter, I'm eager to use it!!

We have a little over a month of school left. Noah's Ark summer camp will keep me occupied for a month. Cayden and Hannah will both be able to attend. Hannah will also go to 2 VBS's during the month of June with Darby.

The dance recital is in 2 1/2 weeks. I cannot wait. I'm so proud of Hannah. We were allowed to watch the dance last week and I cried like a baby. She's come so far in her dancing this year. It's going to be fabulous!

That's our life in a nutshell right now. Here's to life calming down.