Well, I fell off the wagon. I don’t know if I'd call it a wagon, per say, but I certainly did stop tracking my points, exercising regularly and eating better. I didn’t however, stop going to my WW meetings. And the scale has gone up and down and up and down, well you get the picture. It hasn’t got up by much. It hasn’t gone down by much. I’ve pretty much mastered the art of maintaining, again. Which isn’t a bad thing, except my goal is to lose the weight, right? At least I know that when I do lose the weight, I will be able to keep it off.
It all started with a little tattoo. It’s on my ankle/foot. It signifies my losing 15 lbs. At least I’m still down 15 lbs. After I got the tattoo, we had Easter and then a boy’s birthday, and the Mother’s Day, and then….the excuses could go on and on. For a week and a half, I actually did Jillian Michael’s 30 Day Shred, and by the end of the the 1st week, I felt stronger, thinner, and empowered. But then, I started to feel bad, and I mean bad. My entire body hurt. My head hurt. If anyone touched me, I felt it 1,000 times. I went to the doctor. I had strep. STREP! I know I’m a preschool teacher and when little ones in my classroom have strep, it’s possible that I will get it, but I don’t think I’ve had strep since Hannah was born. Since before, really. But I had it, and it brought me down. I was in bed for days. And I still haven’t gotten the strength to work out again. I’m hoping by this weekend. Because I am bound and determined to do that 30 Day Shred Video for 30 days. I’m actually excited about it.
But my little illness reminded me of how much food (chocolate and coca-cola to be specific) are still my source of comfort. I haven’t gotten over that hump yet. And it’s so frustrating. I had gone a significant amount of time without a coke, but the moment I get sick, I need one. I physically ache for one. I crave one. And the chocolate? Well, doesn’t chocolate make everyone feel better? And since we still have leftover chocolate from Easter, I just couldn’t not eat it, right? (Go ahead, roll your eyes). But that’s me.
This entire scenario got me talking to my fabulous cousin, Cara, who has been struggling with her own weight loss journey. Except, she’s not struggling anymore. She’s a ROCKSTAR, and I couldn’t be more proud of her. In our conversations, she recommended a book she’s been reading to me. And that got me thinking, and wanting to read it. I’ve been doing some light frivolous reading of The Vampire Diaries. As suspenseful as they are (which is hard for me to ready) they are really proving to me that I need to be reading. In a week I’ve read two and a half of them. My brain CRAVES it. And it really is exercise, right? I’ve also been reading on my Kindle App another book, It Happens Every Spring by Gary Chapman and Catherine Palmer (which is free at the moment on Amazon – for the kindle). Talk about completely different from The Vampire Diaries. But I am enjoying it as well. And it makes for waiting things a bit easier – when I can pull up the app and just read.
Anyway, Cara recommended a book to me – Made to Crave. I had Stephen pick it up for me yesterday, and let me tell you, it’s amazing. I’m already starting to look at things differently.
Each chapter has reflection questions, and I’ve decided to keep track of them on my blog instead of writing them down in a journal. I don’t have a journal – I’ve never kept one. But now I see my blog as a journal (be it public) and I think it’s a good place to start.
The premise of the blog will be the same. I’m journeying to goal. But the blog titles will be different – Made to Crave Week 1, etc.
I’m excited to begin this journey and change my life (both physically and spiritually)!