Pieces of Me

Tuesday, July 31, 2012

Whole 30–Day 3

Well, I made it through Day 3.  It was a crazy day.  I am the SS and Nursery Coordinator at my church, and so I had to get some curriculum up into North Austin at some point today. 

For breakfast I grabbed 2 eggs nests, a cup of strawberries and made a homemade coconut milk latte with gloria jeans butter toffee coffee and vanillia stevia.

My morning started with lots of traffic.  Last week, some dude didn’t pay attention to the height of his load and hit our main bridge over the highway causing it to be shut down for 7 hours.  Well, it’s been nearly a week and the bridge is still not 100% open causing major traffic delays.  And someone decided it would be a good idea to try and run across Hwy 71 this morning and got hit by two cars (and died Sad smile ) but also caused the highway to be shut down during rush hour.  This caused me to have to take an alternate route out of my neighborhood and after 40 minutes of sitting in traffic, I finally got across the highway and was able to get my kids to VBS (15 minutes late). 

Once they were dropped off, I had to go to the dentist.  Now I admit, I haven’t been to the dentist in 4 years.  I actually thought it had been more than that, but I knew this appointment wasn’t going to be fun.  I knew there wasn’t going to be a cleaning and just a lot of X-Rays and a bunch of other evaluations of my mouth.  I’m told that I have great gums and teeth but that I have a few cavities on a few teeth (okay 2 cavities) and that my old fillings need to be replaced.  The estimate when I get through?  On top of my $46 copay for a $156 appointment?  $3,000.  THREE THOUSAND DOLLARS.  I immediately get on the phone and call my childhood dentist and ask if they will give me a 2nd opinion.  They even let me fax the estimate to them.  And they are SHOCKED.  Tons of work that appears to be unnecessary.  I’m thankful that #1. I have insurance, and #2. I have someone from whom to seek a second opinion.  I’m going to my childhood dentist (SHOUT OUT TO DR. TENNISON) and will happily receive the treatment he feels I need.

That being said, I got done with the dentist and had to pick up the kids and head north.  We went up to the Arboretum and ate at 5 Guys.  I had a bunless burger all the way.  It was good – and Whole 30. 

We visited the cows, and then headed home.  The kids were disappointed because Amy’s Ice Creams in the Arboretum doesn’t take Credit Cards.  I was not.  LOL

We got home and had quiet time for 1 1/2 hours.  And then I decided I should do my civic duty and go vote.  Its 100+ degrees outside, but I load the kids on their bikes and we make the 1/2 mile walk to the voting place.  Only to be told it’s closed.  By the time we got home we were all hot, and there was NO WAY I was cooking dinner.  So we waited for Stephen to get home, and we headed to Jason’s Deli – where I had a Chicken Club Salad – no cheese with Olive Oil and Vinegar Dressing.

All in all I had a great day.

Oh – and I had a peach today for a snack.

I’m feeling great.  I’m tired, but not exhausted like the first time.  I am ready to stop taking Benadryl at night.  I am down to one pill a day instead of two. 

Oh and Kalyn, she is ROCKIN’ her Whole 30.  XOXOXO

Monday, July 30, 2012

Whole 30–Day 2: Does anyone want an 8 year old?

In all seriousness, today was a tough day with the girl.  She is trying to becoming more independent and in doing so, she is a complete terror when it comes to her treatment of me.  It is down right hurtful.  She tells at me, tells me I don’t understand, tells me I don’t love her, tells me she wishes she was the baby.  All because she cannot handle it lately when I tell her no or disagree with her on some level.  It’s insane

No matter how I try to model Christ’s love, I just get angry.  Just 5 minutes ago she started to tell me she was sorry.  Trying to be the good and understanding parent, I asked, “What are you sorry for, Hannah?”  And then, she screams at me.  She can’t answer me (which is okay, and I would have gotten to that) so she screams at me.  I cannot have her screaming at me – #1. Because I’m her mother.  You don’t speak to your parents like that, but #2. Because I’m a person.  She cannot talk to anyone the way she’s been talking to me lately, regardless of her frustration or anger at herself.  She obviously knows she has done something wrong.  I’d go as far as to say that she understands why it’s wrong, but she is like a toddler right now learning to talk.  She can’t seem to express her feelings to me.  I guess I need to pick up that book (Preparing Your Daughter for Every Young Woman’s Battle) and continue to read about what she’s feeling/going through/whatever.  This evening, I’m just at a loss.

My sister-in-law posted this verse the other day, and I have been reading it daily and really struggling to model this way, “Watch what God does, and then you do it, like children who learn proper behavior from their parents. Mostly what God does is love you. Keep company with him and learn a life of love. Observe how Christ loved us. His love was not cautious but extravagant. He didn't love in order to get something from us but to give everything of himself to us. Love like that” (Ephesians 5:1 MSG).

I’m not even going to get through this post. 

Whole 30 Day #2 was fine.

Breakfast was 2 eggs and sausage and a smoothie that had spinach, cucumber, strawberry, banana, blueberry and blackberry.  It also had a little bit of coconut milk and then some Capri Sun Super V (I was desperate).

Snacks today were granola and a 1/4 of a local larabar (won’t be doing that again, $4 for a bar is ridiculous).  I also had a Almond Milk Iced Latte.  I over did it on the Grain Free Granola.  I also had an apple.

Lunch was left over Salmon from Thursday evening and Squash Medley.

Dinner was Fool’s Gold Chicken Nuggets from the Paleo Parents and green beans.

Praying that tomorrow is a better day all around. 

Edited to Add: I went on a 20 minute, 1 mile walk with Cayden this evening.  I’ve strained my calf muscle and a mile is as far as my body would let me go.  Pretty disappointed, but I’ll get over it.

(On a positive note, we had some issues with a Blu-Ray player Stephen got me for Mother’s Day.  The registration code was EXTREMELY offensive, and after many attempts of trying to contact them to let them know, we had success.  All I wanted was an apology, but they are insisting on sending us a fun bundle that includes a new Blu-Ray player [mine has to go to jail LOL], some movies for the kids, and GET THIS, the newest model of Sony’s DSLR camera!  The representative originally wanted to send us a nice gift card [I was thinking $50], but instead noticed in my signature that I’m a photographer, and offered to send me the latest camera.  I’m overwhelmed with excitement!  And very pleased with how Sony is handling the situation, regardless of the goodies we’re receiving.)

Sunday, July 29, 2012

Whole 30 Day 1

Well, I am happy to say that I made it through the day without any issues.  We didn’t have worship today due to the parking lot of our meeting place being repaved which gave me some extra time to sleep.  Sleep is something that I have been having major issues with since going back to eating poorly.  I don’t know what it is (the corn, the soy, the wheat), but something is making me not be able to sleep.  After going off my sleep meds in March, I have had to take Benadryl to get some decent sleep (which isn’t Ambien, but it’s still a dependency).  I’m looking forward to next week when I won’t need it.  Smile 

This morning I woke up and had breakfast – the Bacon, Kale and Black Olives Egg Pie.  I had two slices of it to finish it off.  Really the best pie ever.  I got the recipe from the cookbook by Paleo Parents, Eat Like a Dinosaur.  The fact that my husband loved it says something HUGE.  Anyway, I’ll be making this again after I finish the Eggs in a Nest (also from this book) that I cooked up on Thursday evening.

I also had a strawberry, banana, spinach, zucchini, blackberry, coconut milk with a 1/2 dropper of Vanilla Crème Stevia and 2 tsp of chia seed gel (because I need to use it up).  I had this to up my morning carb intake.  I was hoping it would give me energy, but it didn’t.  I haven’t rested well so after breakfast I went straight to sleep.  LOL

I didn’t have lunch because I was still full from breakfast.  It was over 700 calories, so I’m okay with skipping breakfast.

My mom and I took the kids swimming this afternoon.  We spent 2 hours at the pool and I probably spent an hour of it swimming with my kiddos.  My legs are still killing me from helping a friend move up 3 flights of stairs.  I took them several times, and since I have had calf issues in the past, it doesn’t surprise me that I’m in so much pain.

Dinner was amazing.  I had a spinach salad with zucchini and baby tomatoes from the local farmer’s market – topped it with Lemon Olive Oil and Cherry Balsamic Vinegar.  I also made Chicken Wings and Sweet Potato Coins.  This meal was pretty close to perfect.  Cayden was at a birthday party, and Hannah ate leftover lasagna from my mom, but Stephen and I enjoyed this yummy dinner.  And Stephen promptly packed it up for lunch tomorrow – which makes my heart happy.  Smile

I also made the Paleo Parents Grain Free Granola.  Just to have something quick and yummy to munch on throughout the week. 

So there you have it. 

“Watch what God does, and then you do it, like children who learn proper behavior from their parents. Mostly what God does is love you. Keep company with him and learn a life of love. Observe how Christ loved us. His love was not cautious but extravagant. He didn't love in order to get something from us but to give everything of himself to us. Love like that.” Ephesians 5:1-2 (MSG)

Whole 30 July 29-August 28

Today begins my 2nd Whole 30.  I completed my first one in March of this year and cannot believe how awesome I felt afterwards.  Life caught up with me, and instead of continuing to eat whole, real foods, I began to poison my body with processed foods that left me feeling tired and bloated.  Stephen and I complete a week of Whole 30 eating together 2 weeks ago, but we got off track on the weekend, and essentially never got back on track.  After 2 weeks of feeling lousy (trying a tiny bit to eat well, but making excuses when I didn’t), I’ve decided to do it again.  For the month of August.  It’s not going to be easy because Hannah’s birthday falls within the next week, but I’m doing a modified Whole 30, giving allowing myself to include honey and bacon (I know, nothing about bacon is good for you, but it is something I feel like I need to “allow” myself to have.”

So that being said, I will blog every day (I hope) to hold myself accountable.  I hope someone will read it and cheer me on while I attempt to take my life back. 

During my Whole 30, I hope to meet some very personal goals.  I got this idea from The Whole Family.  I admire this family so much for doing this together.  My family will be eating what I eat probably 85% of the time because I’m who cooks, but right now, I am focusing on myself before I can focus on my family.  I must take time for myself.  In doing so, I will be able to teach my family.

#1 I want to strength my relationship with my heavenly Father.  I want to spend time with Him every day – in His Word.  I want to continue to learn and discover more about His love and what it means for everyone.  In light of the whole CFA debacle, I want to turn to His word and discover on my own in reference to things I have been told all my life.  I pray the Holy Spirit guides my moments in the Word and my relationship with Christ is strengthened.

#2 I am committing to get at least 30 minutes of exercise EVERY DAY.  This might mean an evening walk with my family.  It might mean swimming in the pool, hiking, whatever.  But I want to be active.  I want to run, but I’m having some calf issues right now, and I know that running would not be good for me.  But I am committed. 

#3 I am going to blog every day.  It may just be a “I made it through the day and didn’t die” post, but I will blog every day. 

These are my goals.  I am ready.  I know I am in His grip.  And so, I am doing this for myself.

“So eat your meals heartily, not worrying about what others say about you—you're eating to God's glory, after all, not to please them. As a matter of fact, do everything that way, heartily and freely to God's glory.” 1 Cor 10:31 (MSG)

PS – I am so thankful for two sweet friends who I know are following my journey, and to one for actually taking this journey with me.  You both mean the world to me.